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| Friday, December 31, 2004 |
1st 3 months --i stepped into sajc as a saint on 2nd of jan this year.. this marks e beginning of my journey in sa.. i was in og 13... my first 3 months most beloved class.. 04S75.. they are e reason i fell in love with sa.. i didnt think i would stay in sa.. but some things may be fated.. i got 10 pts for Os.. couldnt make it to nj. n ended up staying in sa.. my dad fell sick during this period of time too. but he recovered already.. so that's good news.. after 1st 3 months -- was reposted to 04S73.. i only knew jialin right from e beginning coz she's from og 13 too.. this class' pretty ok.. but it's different.. i still love s75 more! but we still haf a year together.. perhaps i'll grow to love them as much as s75 next yr.. badminton.. saints badminton is made up mainly for crescent pple.. i guess i feel kinda left out at times.. but i did try my best to mingle.. they welcome me into their 'family' but it's diff from nybt.. of coz it's different! but i cant help but think bout e past sometimes.. birthday this year was spent with e sa badminton pple.. they are really thoughtful. bought me a bag... treated me to lunch at fish n co.. n many pple were there to celebrate e arrival of my 17th birthday.. but i was kinda feeling down that day.. i guess. so didnt really enjoy myself.. common test this year was a disaster. i guess i under estimated e standard of e exams. didnt really prepare myself for it.. so i did badly.. it feels kinda sucky to be at e bottom of e class... so i strived harder for my promos n did relatively ok... im kinda happy with my results.. although it wasnt damn good or wad.. i've been on an emotional roller coaster ride this year.. n i feel that i went through alot of things this year.. n having so much things that happened in a year is tiring... i've shed countless buckets of tears this year.. i've never cried so much in my life before.. i guess this hasnt been a good year.. but den i must be thankful for this year oso.. it kinda make me grow up.. n before this year comes to an end.. i would really wan to thank a lot of pple.. geraldine.. thank you for being there when i needed a listening ear. im so glad our paths crossed n u became my best fren.. friends forever yea?! s75.. pple like sihui, jiahui, ivan, andy, liting, ally, meixin, shaun, lorraine n more.... yep. thanx pple for being there with me to spend my fondest memories of first three months in sa.. nybt.. pple u noe i love u guys.. sa badminton.. thank you for spending e last few days of e year with me.. u guys haf been great 04S73.. adeline, siji, jialin.. my clique pple.. thank you for talking rot with me during sch days.. haha. nigel jinglong for brightening up my days in sch... yucheng zhisen for being there to talk rubbish with me.. thank you pple overseas cip pple.. thank you pple for sharing this memory with me.. it will etched in my mind forever.. u guys rock!! i wanna thank alot of pple tooo.. too many to mention le. gooodbye 2004... i'll walk into 2005, smiling. |
| Shan ♥ 11:27 PM |
| Tuesday, December 28, 2004 |
anyway went jurong east lib to study with ger today lahh.. den did my maclaurin series tutorial... although i still dunno how to do question 5 n 6.. but at least i did e first 4.. man, im proud of myself!! anyway im gonna get started on dreaded integration laterrssss.... ended up going shopping at jurong pt later.. n we went to popular n we browsed thru some of e horoscope books.. n i took a look at e year 2004 love horoscope.. that analyse ur monthly love life.. fuLL of CRAP man. hahahaha... nothing's accurate at all.... so pple, horoscope this kinda thing is only read for leisure only.. dun actually go n believe k.. yep. anyway ger's one was abit true lahh.. ok. very true for that particular section.. hahaha.. |
| Shan ♥ 11:14 PM |
| Monday, December 27, 2004 |
| Shan ♥ 11:35 PM |
anyway i had 04S75 class gathering yday!! it was really great. shld update more on e details n pics tml.. but im really happy that i went.. coz i felt so close to them once again.. it's a feeling that i haven felt for ages.. n that sense of belonging.. it's just great.. yep. love u guys! |
| Shan ♥ 1:55 AM |
| Saturday, December 25, 2004 |
anyway i went down to orchard with sj n ade for er. so called xmas countdown yday.. n guess wad. we missed e countdown totally.. -.-""" n we overheard pple say its xmas already.. so i just shook hands with sj n ade n wished them merry xmas... wad a countdown yea?! hahahah.. anyway i was trying so hard to avoid pple with foam cans yday.. we were like potential targets.. wherever we go pple would spray e stupid foam at us.. yea, coz we were "unarmed". blah. 
oh this is e nicest decoration i saw at orchard.. @ centrepoint shopping centre.. 
this is e place where we sat down n took a lot of photos.. hahaha. istana park at ps there.. saw a lesbian couple. erm. yeap. haha 
ade n me.. =) no three pple pic.. coz nobody take for us.. wait till i get e pics from sijia..she used e timer to take photo. hah. we kinda siam immediately after e countdown.. or if u consider that as a countdown.. n took bus 123! n reached sijia's empty condo at arnd 1am.. den we bathed.. watched e recorded last episode of e champions(coz me n sijia went to thailand n we missed out e last episode yea..) hahah..after so long. finally get to watch it.. lol.. n we lie on e bed n talked.. gossiped more like it... haha. from like 3+ to arnd 6... ade refused to let us sleep. lol. but we still slept lah. woke up at like 10.. den left sijia house at arnd 11... reached home at noon time.. n continued to be pig till 3+.. haha.. this is how i spend my christmas day.. how wonderful... anyway i decided to sum up my yr 2004 with a song. Welcome to my life- Simple plan Do you ever feel like breaking down? <- YES Do you ever feel out of place? <- YES Like somehow you just don't belong <- YES And no one understands you <- sometimes.. Do you ever wanna run away? <- YES Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me <- THIS IS SO TRUE To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down When no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down When no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lies straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok <- I'M OPTIMISTIC. I'M GONNA BE OK Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like What it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down When no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down When no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life u have to be me to know how i feel sometimes.. i guess this song kinda sums up all e mixed emotions i felt throughout the year.. but of coz there were times when i smile, genuinely.. life's full of ups and downs.. i guess this is just.. life. |
| Shan ♥ 5:29 PM |
| Thursday, December 23, 2004 |
bena ailin n me.. yep. but den i had a good talk with ailin... updating each other bout our own lives in respective schs.. n i talked quite abit with jieying too.. i guess i'll be seeing her arnd quite often next yr.. hahaha.. so we'll have alot of time to talk. =D anyway im so sad lehh. i couldnt find a 500 pieces frame at e pasar malam at khatib!! :( got 300, 1000 pieces one.. just dun haf 500 pieces one lo. so gek. now i haf to spend so much more to get e frame at elsewhere.. blahh..... i suppose this shld be e last entry of e day.. haha. no more. tml im going christmas countdown.. so i wish everyone merry xmas in advance!! =D |
| Shan ♥ 11:19 PM |
alright. time to step out of my gloominess.. i realised that so many pple arnd me love n care for me.. n im here wallowing in self pity.. uh. stupid huh. i guess it's a phase that all of us has to go thru.. yea.. i'll try my very best to cheeer up! after all, christmas' coming! hohoho. |
| Shan ♥ 2:12 PM |
why does it hurt so bad? some pple say holidays is a break from e hectic sch life n stuff.. but for me.. this hols hasnt been great.. too much time alone just leaves me wondering n thinking bout stuff that i shouldnt be thinking... i guess im an insecured young girl who wans to grow up.. yet fears growing up at e same time. how ironic... anyway i feel like going back to normal sch days now.. can u believe it? at least there's something to keep me occupied for at least half e day.. n maybe e daily routine of waking up at 5.30.. coming home at 4+ will tire me out.. n i'll be too tired n numbed to think bout things happening.. or rather, things that are not happening... ouch. it hurts so bad. |
| Shan ♥ 1:02 AM |
| Tuesday, December 21, 2004 |
but den dunno wad happened.. our fire doesnt seem to be going strong.. n e soup didnt boil throughout.. n damn. i tot there was a half price for ladies yday..so we went all e way to marina square.. instead of jurong pt.. n only to realise that dun haf half price! n we paid 22 bucks. oh my goodness.. im so broke now.. but im so glad i met up with e rest..coz it's been quite a while since i last met them.. although it's e same few pple.. i guess there are new faces this time rnd.. like feiling! haha. i mean she's in sa too lah. but well. e rest haven seen her for quite a while.. n wow. we got updates of everybody's love lives tooo.. interesting.. no more truth or dare games.. anyway nobody speaks e truth when they pick truth.. hahaha. so wads e pt? n i think we're matured enough not to play such games le.. yep =) n one thing i've noticed.. 6R pple dun seem to be changing at all. it's e good old 6R! 
e only pic taken of us at citylink mall before my cam decided to die on me. hahaha.. i brought e wrong batteries.. lol. anyway i love u guys! muacks. =) |
| Shan ♥ 10:47 PM |
| Sunday, December 19, 2004 |
anyway, im damn shagged todae.. baked london almond cookies!! so tired. me n ger baked 247! wow. super impressed with myself. lol.. anyway it turned out to be successful lah. i wouldnt say big success coz some of e cookies dun look very nice. hahaha. but den still quite nice to eat. so if i give u for xmas, u just er. close ur eyes n savour e taste yea? lol. 
look at our cookies! heh. these are e nicer ones obviously. heh. yummY! |
| Shan ♥ 1:55 AM |
| Friday, December 17, 2004 |
http://www.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/mtv/10309/flash/030926chongerfei.swf quite sweet! =) had meeting early in e morning.. den watched a dry run of e presentation n e video clip. not bad not bad. =) den went to do cip in e afternoon. hang banners at diff sec sch.. den got ny!!! so i specially chose to go to ny. lol. so fun n exciting to be back in ur own sec sch.. anyway im really damn proud of ny. haha. im sure those pple who went with me could sense my love my e sch. lol. den coincidentally, ny got training too! so i saw mr wee n my juniors.. but i gotta go to st margs to hang the other banner. so i went off before i went back ny again... den i joined them for training lo. anyway nybt facing a big crisis now.. alot of individuals in e team are going against e coach.. sighh. my batch was simply. too goood! so mr wee keep comparing us to them... aiyah. super complicated.. i was quite depressed to see all this happening... e team unity is lacking.. den my coach was super unhappy.. den he say he feel like giving up on e team le, in other words, quit! NOOOOO!!! he cannot lo. if he quit, i wouldnt wan to go back ny le. he's e reason why i still go back so often. aiyah. tml some of my batch pple are going back.. n i guess we're gonna talk to e juniors.. hope they'll change their attitude.. i dun wan mr wee to leave!! :( |
| Shan ♥ 10:49 PM |
| Thursday, December 16, 2004 |
anyway, life's unpredictable, dun u agree? feelings are weird things, arent they? it's fading slowly, day by day... |
| Shan ♥ 10:55 PM |
| Wednesday, December 15, 2004 |
anyway im regaining that love for badminton.. it's good news. i guess watching mvp qing ren helps.. well. coz i realised badminton has been a big part of my life.. life would be pretty pointless if i give badminton up now... no matter how bad my day has been, playing badminton never fails to cheer me up. first of all, i can sorta like vent my frustration when i hit e shuttlecocks.. n secondly, i will feel really good after a good game. it used to bother me alot if i dun win my matches.. but now, not anymore.. becoz i realised that it's all bout enjoying e game. e outcome doesnt really matter. as long as i noe i tried my very best, i would be contented.. but obviously when i win e matches, i would be happier lahh. but den now i guess i've grown to accept defeats. it's how we improve anyway. |
| Shan ♥ 1:10 PM |
| Tuesday, December 14, 2004 |
horrible day. had training n did physical training for half an hour. haven been doing pt.. so it was very hard for me. ended up vomitting.. wanted to go swimming but sometimes things just dun turn out the way u wan it to be... i really need to get my head underwater.. perhaps i can think better that way..splitting headache again. i wonder if im thinking too much.. |
| Shan ♥ 6:38 PM |
ger, are u pulling ur hair out already? it's so darn cute rite. hahaha =P anyway i came across this blog layout.. n i decided that i haf to change my layout. haha. although i haven use e butterfly one for a long time.. n i make alot of changes to e current layout toooo.. not bad leh. im proud of myself. -grinx- |
| Shan ♥ 1:19 AM |
| Monday, December 13, 2004 |
i attended rv n yuhua alumni band concert at e esplanade todae! go support adeline. hah so nice of me as a fren as usual.. n i bought her a flower shared with sijia.. n guess wad..e flower cost 13 bucks!!!! pple, dun buy from esplanade florist k... cheat money one.. somemore e wrapping not say very nice..den i gotta rewrap it myself! 0.o blah. anyway e concert was pretty goood. rather entertaining. e best part is.. it's freeee! hahah. ok, im cheapo. n e guy who played e saxophone solo.... zai!! damn zai. i was like abit mesmerised le. haha =P anyway i kinda miss e days back in ny when we attended all e various concerts le.. like arts fest.. den choral nite.. yea. e good old days. haha. there i go again..talking bout e past! haha. okok. must move on must move on. i found e following quote very meaningful.. "Everyone needs recognitionn for his accomplishments, but few people make the need known quite as clearly as the little boy who said to his father,"Let's play darts. I'll throw and you say 'Wonderful!'" - the best of bits and pieces pple, come on, praise me! haha =D |
| Shan ♥ 1:30 AM |
| Saturday, December 11, 2004 |
* Cigarette: A pinch of tobacco rolled in paperwith fire at one end & a fool on the other. * Lecture: An art of transferring information fromthe notes of the lecturer to the notes of thestudents without passing through "the minds ofeither" * Conference: The confusion of one manmultiplied by the number present. * Compromise: The art of dividing a cake in sucha way that everybody believes he got thebiggest piece. * Tears: The hydraulic force by which masculinewill-power is defeated by feminine water power... <--- hahahaha. quite true. * Dictionary: A place where su ccess comesbefore work. * Conference Room: A place where everybodytalks, nobody listens and everybody disagreeslater on. * Classic: A book which people praise, but do notread. * Smile: A curve that can set a lot of thingsstraight. * Office: A place where you can relax after yourstrenuous home life. * Yawn: The only time some married men ever getto open their mouth. * Etc: A sign to make others believe that you knowmore than you actually do. * Committee: Individuals who can do nothingindividually and sit to decide that nothing can bedone together. * Experience: The name men give to their mistakes. * Atom Bomb: An invention to end all inventions. * Philosopher: A fool who torments himself duringlife, to be spoken of when dead. * Opportunist: A person who starts taking bath ifhe accidentally falls into a river. * Optimist: A person who while falling from Eiffeltower says in midway "See I am not injured yet"* Miser: A person who lives poor so that he candie rich. <---- i like this! haha * Father: A banker provided by nature. * Criminal: A guy no different from the rest...except that he got caught. * Boss: Someone who is early when you are lateand late when you are early. * Politician: One who shakes your hand beforeelections and your confidence after. * Doctor: A person who kills your ills by pills, andkills you with his bills. my mood isn't any better. but well. i'll get over it, soon. =) |
| Shan ♥ 11:06 PM |
| Friday, December 10, 2004 |
| Shan ♥ 10:43 PM |
| Thursday, December 09, 2004 |
super upset over certain things that happened todae.. i dun wanna talk bout them. just make me sadder. n im not ready to reveal such personal tots online.. n risked letting pple read everything... im not ready, yet. i need to get all these out or i'll explode.... ger, date me soon. :( |
| Shan ♥ 10:13 PM |
| Wednesday, December 08, 2004 |
anyway i haf a stupid headache that's bugging me since 3 days ago. it's on n off.. any remedies? |
| Shan ♥ 11:31 PM |
| Tuesday, December 07, 2004 |
something's been bothering me for e past few days though. but i was happier after a good sweat-it-out todae. haha. well. playing badminton lifts my mind off that thing for a while. well. just a while. now it's bugging me again. hai. ok. nvm. shant sigh. i'll get over this crazy period soon! =) |
| Shan ♥ 11:15 PM |
| Sunday, December 05, 2004 |
anyway i just wasted an entire sunday. oops |
| Shan ♥ 11:35 PM |
| Shan ♥ 1:32 AM |
| Friday, December 03, 2004 |
| Shan ♥ 10:39 PM |
| Thursday, December 02, 2004 |
alright. so taufik won. ok. he's good too. just that i prefer sylvester!! haha.. but i shall be nice. i like taufik too. im happy he won.. but i would have been happier if sylvester won. hah =) |
| Shan ♥ 1:02 AM |
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