& my world will be coloured.

Sunday, January 30, 2005

my tagboard is spoilt. >.<

TODAY

drank expired soya bean drink.
collected sand under hot blazing sun with him
a movie/dinner promised next week
right butt aching from yday's training due to most hated distribution of shuttles on court
did chem + phys
ought to study for chem spa n maths test

Shan ♥ 9:52 PM

BoOo. only 5 j1s turn up for training todae when there's supposed to be a j1 orientation?????? diaoz. nowadays ah. e j1s are getting from bad to worse.. haha. i sound so old. oh yea, im old. was at my dad's company dinner just now.. den i was baby sitting my little cousin who's 6.. haha. was playing really stupid games like tickling her all over n pinching her nose. -.-" hahahah. n she was really enjoying it. alright. im a born mother. who wanna marry me? hahahaha.. im currently high. im nuts. yea. i shld eat more peanuts.. yay..

Shan ♥ 1:32 AM

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth		50%
Intellect		38%
Emotional Stability		58%
Aggressiveness		50%
Liveliness		42%
Dutifulness		74%
Social Assertiveness		58%
Sensitivity		78%
Paranoia		46%
Abstractness		58%
Introversion		58%
Anxiety		58%
Openmindedness		54%
Independence		54%
Perfectionism		66%
Tension		46%

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all my scores are like average.. im such an average person. haha. oh yea, something to note. my intellect's e lowest?!?! hahaha. wth man....

Shan ♥ 10:38 PM

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

For those who are reading this, would u spend a min to say a prayer for my fren's brother who's currently in e hospital..
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im supposed to be sleeping at this time..coz i got cross country tmL!! haha. but den i just woke up like not long ago. shucks. haven done my maths tut. n i dun think i'll do that tml... tml my zhizhi's bday.. nv get her anythings. bleahhhh...ok belated one, promised! but we're gonna have dinner with her after training...tml will be a long day.......... anyway this yr cross country.. hm. i dun think i can get into top 20.. lol. shall just try my best to run ba...yay. anyway tml taking 157... so long nv take 157 in e morning le... haha. shall take a good look at e ever so familiar surroundings again... heh

Shan ♥ 10:48 PM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Keep The Faith

If you don't see the stars twinkle at night,

it doesn't mean that they are not there.

They're just hidden behind the clouds

and you will surely see them shine again.

meaningful verse.. :]

Shan ♥ 2:55 PM

Saturday, January 22, 2005

is it that hard to look at me in e eye? why is he still avoiding...

regrets.

Shan ♥ 11:30 PM

did alot of exercise todae.. had training in e morning todae... den went for a jog behind my house in e evening.. alone, for e first time...

was talking to jieying on our way home todae.. den it got me thinking.. do pple lose passion for the things they do as they grow older? i used to remember that pple from my batch of nybt look forward to every training.. n e attendance is almost full.. nobody complained bout training.. n that 'thing' that's been motivating us n pushing us is passion.. n now i looked at my ex teammates.. all of them are still in badminton. but now.. how many of them actually love e sport that bonded us together? i dun blame anyone of them for that.. becoz i haf question myself bout this many many times as well.. wad is it that make me go turn up for trainings? is it really passion or just an obligation to do so? sigh. i cant answer that myself either.

everybody tells me that i haf to move on.. becoz we cant be always living in e past.. we haf to let go when it's time.. very true. n i totally agree with them. but it's hard. especially so for me.. i cant help but compare days in ny n days in sa all e time.. becoz i dun feel belonged to sa at all... that's e sad conclusion that i arrived at after spending a year in sa...

No one is here by chance

yea. i am there by mistake. BIG mistake.

Shan ♥ 11:02 PM

Friday, January 21, 2005

some people just dun understand, dont they??

dense!!

Shan ♥ 11:22 PM

i went to my cousin's house warming todae.. perhaps u may say im anti social.. i dun like family gatherings.. coz i get so bored during this kinda events.. coz like dun really keep in touch with my cousins n stuff so like see them nothing much to say. so i was stoning at her house.. her house quite small although it's like 5 room lah.. new flats are like that.. n her house very inaccessible leh.. at jurong extension there.. was watching 'the incredibles' at her house. hmmmm.. brings back some memories.. sigh.
anyway fiona just called me.. n asked me to go out.. NOW. -.-"" hahaha. so cute ah.. she's stoning to death le. but den mommy cooked dinner le. so i cant go out with her. sorry fionaaa.
im supposed to go running. sheesh. lazy to get out of my house.. haha. shant postpone my plans for running tml or sunday. =X

Shan ♥ 5:52 PM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

long time no update le.. stupid com spoilt... repaired le still spoilt.. but i changed my com!!!!
-cheerssss- im finally using windows xp now.. after using windows 98 for like how many million years.. yayyyyyy.. hahahaha.. tml hari raya haji.. holiday! im missing 2 hours of gp!! n im missing e most dreaded 1.5hr of phys tutorial...... HIp HiP hoRRaY!! lee wen thye freak... hahahaha.. =) =) =) shall either go running or go swimming tml.. need to keep fit. heh.. oh saturday training's going to be a happy one. heheheheh. :D

Shan ♥ 3:44 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

hmm. my com's repaired. but it doesnt support internet explorer.. meaning.. it will hang whenever i try to use IE. bleah. anyway recently my mood is not very good. haha. dunno why oso.. prob e stress of j2 life is starting to act on me le... sigh.
things are alright for e badminton team now. i guess.. there are players who can play. so i suppose that they'll send a team? i hope they will. if not, it's kinda meaningless for me... im not going for e honour or glory.. but it wouldnt be e same if u're not competing.. it's like something's lacking that i cant quite put to words.. stanley ong may say that it's for e passion.. thus not sending a team is like no big deal. it's a big deal to me! i wonder how many pple can understand this kinda feelings...

Shan ♥ 3:42 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

yayyyyy!!! i haven posted for soooo long. hahaha.. coz my com crashed... so sad.. i lived wo my com for a week leh! hahaha.. actually it wasnt that bad.. every nite do hw lo.. den can keep myself entertained le.. i oso dunno wad happened over e two weeks.. hmm. oh yea, sch's started le lo... den very busy.. mugging. blah.. im feeling e stress for this year.. but im motivated at e same time to do well... that day i dreamt that i got into nus doing economics n nobody was in e same course as me!!! well. i hope my dream comes true.. partly. lol.. i wan to get into nus, prob doing econs? err. but i hope got pple take same course as me.. if not i'll be damn scared on e first day.. hahahahah. anyway i feel so old in sch... so fast j2 le.. :( i feel so old in sch.. haha. looking at those j1s.. super carefree like that.. i was like that last year lahhh... stressless n just enjoying myself.. haha. nvm. i shall console myself by telling myself that i'll party more after As.... it's e big hurdle this year.. so guys... work hard yea!! we'll all make it, somehow!!! :D :D

Shan ♥ 10:22 PM

Saturday, January 01, 2005

happy 2005! :)
i smiled n walked into 2005. hopefully i'll be happier in this brand new year. it's gonna be a busy year.. with a levels.. it's mugging year! im gonna study hard this year.. new year resolution.. haha. cant wait to go back to sch to see all my frens.. but den at e same time, i feel so lazy to have to wake up at 5.30am every single day n go back to my hectic life..
hope 2005 will be a peaceful year.. with no disasters n all.. bless all i know with good health.. especially my dad... :)

Shan ♥ 11:06 PM