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Thursday, March 31, 2005

rainy n gloomy day.
something like my mood. im disappointed with my maths results. but i'll be fine soon. i'll get over it.. n i'll do something bout it before BT2.
just a random thought, geminis are supposed to feel vulnerable when they bare their true feelings to others.. for example, breaking down in public.. how true is this? i cant recall crying in public except when whye kiat applied antiseptic wipes on my abrasion blisters. e tears gushed out due to pain. not sadness. i guess im used to swallowing my feelings. perhaps, i may get indigestion someday. oh well. but so far, this yr.. i guess it's still ok. there are lesser reasons to cry. or maybe im too numbed to cry already.
1 more day.
i hope u're doing fine.

Shan ♥ 10:53 PM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

yay. todae is a happy happy day. :)
firstly, i passed my chem! yay. i scraped a C. HOHOHO. :)
secondly, i bumped into weiquan todae outside sa.. n he told me his appeal back to sa was successful!! hooooray! this spells H-O-P-E for e guys team. haha. anyway. im happy due to personal reasons too. WAHAHAH.
so there's double happiness todae. yay. :D

BUT. i think i shouldnt be so happy... becoz there are many other things that are going on in this world.. for example e earthquake that took place in indonesia yday.. again. this time e ritcher scale reads 8.7.. but this time rnd, there wasnt any tsunamis.. n e countries which are near e indian ocean are more prepared.. i guess. we learn from our experience.
i pray for those who were lost in this disaster to rest in peace. i hope those who survived find peace soon. hope they'll recover from this shock n move on with their lives soon. bless those who are still not found n grant peace to those anxiously looking for their missing relatives.. hope there will be lesser casulties n e rescue workers will be able to get to e areas hit soon.
pls take a min to say a prayer for them.

3 more days n counting...

Shan ♥ 10:25 PM

Monday, March 28, 2005

had class outing todae at mambo.. played pool from 3+ to arnd 6.. den had dinner pizza hut.. den walked over to kap to talk cock.. haha. as usual. but i think this time rnd, there were less sharing.. coz more pple there.. harder to talk i guess..
yay tml no sch! :) :) i reached home before 12.. im cinderella. lalalala.. haha

Shan ♥ 12:28 AM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

it's hard to get pple to understand u...
im damn afraid of injections.. n it's something that's in born.. i noe it may be nothing to many pple, but to me, it's a big deal. that's y i wun donate blood. i noe it's meaningful n can save lives.. but it's a phobia that i cant overcome..
it's just like there are some things that u'll never do..this kinda things.. it's hard to change e mindset. but pple keep telling me that i can overcome it. im sure if i canovercome it, i would haf, long ago. they nv put themselves in my shoes n see how it feels..
i've fainted because of a jab.. n i've oso vomitted becoz i was too nervous.. pple would nv understand if they've never experienced such things before. they'll just tell u. "im sure u can do it." it's like saying feng liang hua lahh.. ok. im actually quite irritated over this small matter.. blah. i just ended my day with a bad note.

Shan ♥ 12:29 AM

Friday, March 25, 2005

todae was quiet well spent.. good friday indeed. :)
exams are over. so that makes it even happier. haha.
had lunch at suntec kenny rogers with e sa badminton pple.. all e j2 girls were there! wow. :) but i was late for half an hour. because of e accident at buona vista. soem guy jumped onto e trackto retrieve a shoe.. n got hit by e train.. poor guy. he was getting married in two weeks time.. sigh.
oh well. so i took 97 n reached suntec kenny rogers at 2.30.. shared e food with zhizhi.. den after that i took alot of photos lo.. den went shopping.. n i bought a nice espirit top! i wanted to buy my wallet one lo.. but i cant find e one i was looking for.. so didnt get it in e end. how saddening. but at least i got a nice top. so that makes me feel slightly better.. i shall go jurong pt someday to get my wallet. -grinx-
it was a tiring day. but quite fun lahs.. bonding session for e sa peeps. :) got training tml. will see them again.. hahaaa..

Shan ♥ 11:45 PM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

yay~!!! block test is over!!!! :D :D
but den. i think i'll do badly. n i think i'll just scrap thru again. BOO. haha. my maths was like -.-" jia lat n everybody tell me paper is ok. im SO GONE. den chem n phys were quite challenging oso lahh.. but den I HOPE I PASS.. hhaha.. I HOPE. cross fingers. cross toes. cross eyes. hahaha.
as u can see, im high.. coz exams are over. no more long mugging hours.. for e time being.. yay yay yay!
i watched spongebob squarepants movie todae! my goodness. such a ridiculously lame show. but it was funny. funny. funny. a good show to watch after exams.. just there n laugh at e nonsense.. but it was really quite cutes.. hahahaha. pple go catch it. DESTRESS!!! yay
spongebob squarepants~

Shan ♥ 11:17 PM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

here's my studying progress...
1. Chemistry - i think i've completed my revision.. I THINK.
2. Economics - revised on some mcqs only. bleah!
3. Mathematics - completed maclaurin series only! die
4. Physics - NOTHING. ok. this is bad.

looks like i haven done much n gots loads to catch up. im gonna battle integration tml.........

Shan ♥ 1:24 AM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

do u ever experience e kind of feeling that u just dun feel like doing anything.. just look out of e window n stare? it's also a kind of feeling that u find opening ur mouth n make noise a chore. i guess im in that mood now. i opened e fridge, saw cheese n felt like eating. i took one bite n decided that e craving's gone. im supposed to be studying real hard now. but i guess e match todae spoilt it all. i feel lousy. i feel bad. i feel demoralised. i feel like a piece of crap. i cant recall much bout e game now though it was only hours away. it just felt like total rubbish n everything i did seemed wrong. nothing i do could turn e situation back to our advantage.. we were there on court, helpless n all. n i wanted everything to end faster.. it was like a really bad dream. that was one of e most horrid games i've ever played.. if u haf witnessed it, u would haf agreed with me. my teammates were quite upset that we lost.. n they had nothing to say to us after e game.. they must be thinking that we were just clowns on court.. making a fool outta ourselves. it sux to be off form. it sux to noe that u're never gonna get back to ur normal standard again. it sux to noe that we are coachless n there's never going to be someone to push me, to correct me or simply be there to scold me. it sux to noe that i haf lost that kinda passion on drive for badminton. badminton..... how distant. gone are e days of glory..

to sum it all. e day sux.

Shan ♥ 10:12 PM

i won my match yday! :) scores for each match is 15-4 and 15-11 respectively.. played really badly for e second game though.. but my juniors made more mistakes than zhi n i did.. so we won lo. haha. i haf a match later at arnd 3 against st nicks....BLAH. it's going to be a tough fight man.. im going to bring my notes there to mug..coz it'll be damn long before i get to play coz my game's e 3rd last game of e day? zzzz. yday my match was e 2nd last lahh.. den we waited from 3.30 to 6+ before i got to play? den i reached home at 8.30 lo. bathed n had my dinner at 9+.. doink. so i didnt do much studying todae..so must make up for it todae.. i intend to chiong finish chem todae. wish me luck for e game later n my stuyding! ^.^

Shan ♥ 12:01 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

i haven been blogging much lately.. perhaps im starting to get tired of blogging.. haha. anyway sometimes i would rather keep my tots to myself than to make it known public.. i've been going out these few days.. -feels guilty- block test's coming n im still slacking n haven get started with revision yet..sigh. but anyway. i watched howl's moving castle on thurs n hitch yday.. both movies are not bad.. but den i was quite blur in some parts of howl's moving castle.. storyline abit complicated.. but on e whole. not bad. :) hitch was great! all e pickup lines were damn funny. n e albert guy in e show is hilarious.. so those who haven watch it, go watch. quoting xieheng "hitch is well worth e $8.50"
i went for nus openhouse todae.. n many pple tot we were freshmen in uni n wanted us to sign up for those kinda freshmen activities.. haha.. maybe we abit kiasu lah. go n see this yr.. but then since i haven made up my mind of wad course to take.. i might as well go take a look n see which course i prefer.. i went for 3 talks.. namely. faculty of arts n social sci, business n law.. law is totally out of e question.. but i accompanied angelina to go listen lah.. after e talk, it just totally affirms my decision that my interest lies anywhere but law. but e mc for e talk was quite cute. hahaa.. quoting angelina, "if all e guys in law faculty looks like him, i wouldnt mind studying law" haha :) i tot e faculty of arts n social sci talk was quite helpful.. but e business one was like -.-"" im contemplating between econs n business.. anyway, GOH CHOK TONG, our senior minister actually graduated as an econs student from nus! wow. i didnt noe. hahaa.. aiyah. ok. i think i need to work extra hard to do well so that i can get into uni..
lunch at delifrance was nice!! i dunno how to pronouce wad i ate.. it's some potato with melted cheese n ham bites.. nice nice nice! haha. but 7 bucks. erm. ok. it's good to pamper myself sometimes.. heh. after lunch we went to e arcade at jurong east there n played photohunt n bishi bashi... wad a lame game. but we derived cheapthrill out of it.. n we drew quite alot of attention to ourselves coz most of us were quite well dressed n that game looks like it's for little kids.. see wad i mean, CHEAPTHRILL. lol... oh yea. i discovered that angelina is a para para dance queen sia.. she can really move that bod of her. im impressed.. can roughly visualise wad she do at clubbing.. hahaa.. n she's super funny.. kept apologising to us for failing e stage.. like it we were blaming her for failing. she kept saying she sux lah. but den to me ah.. to be able to do wad she did ah.. is a miracle lo. dance lessons at ny last time didnt help. hahaa..
i went for a haircut after that.. i like my new hairstyle. but it'll be sometime before i can start tying my hair again.. it's shoulder length.. but den it's super layered. maybe i'll borrow my bro's wax n style.. FUNKY! >.<
TO THOSE WHO ARE READING THIS: STUDY HARD!!!!!!

Shan ♥ 11:15 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

i just realised my tagboard cant appear for such a long period of time.. this shows how lonnnng i haven been blogging.. too tired n lazy. feeling e strains of being a j2 already. absolutely no time for anything... basically life just revolves arnd studies.cca.studies.cca.
anyway i just failed my maths test again. it's saddening one lo. i mean ok. fine. i nv do my tutorial.. but before e test, i got go n redo them.. n i understood!! but den during e test. i just cant think straight... n bleah! i failed again. it's demoralising.. n next term's block test 1.. n i haven really settle down to study for it. im so ill disciplined lah..
oh yea. yday i went to my bro's bday celebration at e chevrons country club chalet. it's his 21st birthday! i didnt wan to go one lo. but it's 21st birthday.. i think it marks a new journey in his life?? n plus he's coming out of ns soon. n he's going into uni this yr. so this yr is very very impt to him. so as his sis.. how can i not be there. so i went after training in ny.. in stinky uniform. hahahaa. n it was quite weird actually.. all my bro's frens were there n i noe none lahs.. so i hung arnd with my parents n basically decomposed.. n i saw a diff side of my bro when he's with his frens.. it's sad to think that we arent close to each other.. it would be nice if u haf a sibling who would sit n hear u out.. but den we drifted apart long ago.. sigh. everyone oso ask me to try to like talk to him more.. but it's hard u noe. this kinda thing must be mutual one lahs..ok. let's not talk bout this anymore. anyway being e nice sis as i always am.. i bought him a 33 bucks op dryfit polo shirt! it's damn nice k.. haha. super broke now lah... wanted to go shopping one leh.
hopes dashed.

Shan ♥ 11:39 PM